I've told you guys before that a lot of sadness and grief hit our little community and I was captivated and entangled by it that I had to say STOP before I submerged in a downwards going spiral...
Only a month ago we were 'celebrating' the memory of Glenn Gemeiner at this memorial ; last Friday I was honoured to 'celebrate' the life of Caroline, only 33 years old who's lost the battle against the big C(ancer)...
When I looked around in that church, I saw so many faces that I see popping up every day or week...and we were al united in grief and were overwhelmed with the songs her best friend Tanja sang live that morning...
I've been humming Sweet Caroline for days now ; it's in my head ...I need to take some distance but I can't, not yet anyway...every day that passes will soften the sharp edges from that acute pain called grief...
Anyway, I had to drag myself outside today...and luckily my BFF called and made me go outside !
We had our laughs and coffee and hey, I saw a familiar face or 2, and in nice circumstances ....
So that says something right ?
It's not all about bad things but sometimes about shallow things like coffee, cakes and seeing old workmates again ....
Funny when they ask you 'how you're doin' and you just need to say ok even if your heart says not really (but you don't want to bother people with sad stories)
Hopefully many more shallow moments will occur ; God knows I crave them !!
