Monday, 9 November 2009

so small....

My world seems very small lately ...by that I mean that on several occasions, sad and happy ones, I seem to bump into the same people over and over again.
I've told you guys before that a lot of sadness and grief hit our little community and I was captivated and entangled by it that I had to say STOP before I submerged in a downwards going spiral...
Only a month ago we were 'celebrating' the memory of Glenn Gemeiner at this memorial ; last Friday I was honoured to 'celebrate' the life of Caroline, only 33 years old who's lost the battle against the big C(ancer)...
When I looked around in that church, I saw so many faces that I see popping up every day or week...and we were al united in grief and were overwhelmed with the songs her best friend Tanja sang live that morning...
I've been humming Sweet Caroline for days now ; it's in my head ...I need to take some distance but I can't, not yet anyway...every day that passes will soften the sharp edges from that acute pain called grief...
Anyway, I had to drag myself outside today...and luckily my BFF called and made me go outside !
We had our laughs and coffee and hey, I saw a familiar face or 2, and in nice circumstances ....
So that says something right ? 
It's not all about bad things but sometimes about shallow things like coffee, cakes and seeing old workmates again ....
Funny when they ask you 'how you're doin' and you just need to say ok even if your heart says not really (but you don't want to bother people with sad stories) 
Hopefully many more shallow moments will occur ; God knows I crave them !!

7 comments:

Dr Zibbs said...

Hang in there. I'm sure things will be looking up soon.

Jack Daniel said...

It sounds like you're having a SLEUR in your life...
You need to spice things up a little bit(!!) by not doing always the same thing every week.

I love the new header by the way.

diane said...

Babycakes, you have the right idea for healing. Have a slice of "shallow pie" for me.
I wish I could give you a hug. xo d

Dominica said...

@DR and Diane
thanks you guys !

@Jack D
Oh it's totally not about 'sleur' it's about the idea life can end just like that ! There are not certainties here.
Health and life is the greatest gift of all !
You are still young and young(er) people don't have those worries yet...lucky you.

Dutch donut girl said...

Life is so precious And each day a gift. So enjoy every minute and your coffee & cake.
A big hug from me to you.

Organic Meatbag said...

It takes time to heal sometimes...I hope every day keeps getting better for you!

XAVS said...

Don't defeat, everything is gonna be allright soon!
X